Friendships are strange. It's nice to have friends, but not when they become out of control monster-like. Think of the Hulk. He's such a nice guy, right? Then something clicks inside his head and he turns into this wild, green monstrosity. There's no putting that thing back in his box. Nope.
When I was reading The Artist's Way trying to reign in Mr. Resistance, I read about the Crazymaker. Everyone has one of those people in their life now and then. They make it hard for us to do our own stuff by distracting us with their stuff. The bad thing about it is that sometimes you don't know you have a Crazymaker on your hands until they jump out of the box like the Hulk!
I made my peace with my Crazymaker, in my head. I ignored. It worked, for a while.
Now they're circling in the waters like a shark trying to fool it's prey. I think I'm the prey. I will try to ignore, again. But the thing is this: they know what they're doing. They make it hard to ignore.
People around me tell me things related to the Crazymaker. These managers of mayhem are smart. They know how to worm themselves in my direction, by using others I'm close to or friendly with.
Lately it's been by cyberspying. That's my definition because I can't think of anything else to call it that will convey my meaning. Sly and calculating, they are. But guess what? I catch the drift. I'm not a fool. I'm outside because I identified the Crazymaker for who they are and I slowly stepped back. Anyone remember that skit from the '60's with actors I can't think of right now, "Slowly I turn, step by step..."
That's me, backing out of the driveway! But wait! Who's that shadowy figure trying to get my attention? Nah, not fooling me. Still I ignore. How long will they lurk?
Anyway, I painted a twenty minute piece the end of last week which helped me drive thoughts of that Crazymaker out of my head. Now that I've committed myself to the 100 Paintings Challenge, twenty minutes of work is going to help me keep going. Quick and done!
|Broken Shell (c)2011 Dora Sislian Themelis|
8x12 Watercolor on Arches paper
That will show the Crazymaker and Mr. Resistance who's boss! Nyah-ha-ha-ha!